some-no-where #2

Studies about time and perhaps light. (April, 2023) I’m developing images of what was already seen and captured, unseen for a second, then recaptured in a new form of light. This possible never-ending process of making images depends solely on things I am looking after. (Still not a clue on what are them.) Whatever I’m working on, can only be justified as being my own process to reach some other thoughts and reasons. So I feel in this mid-air moment where the images do not come out fully developed, nor they do not exist yet, because they do since the moment I archived them for later in life. They’re not blooming yet, nor anymore.

some-no-where

yellow and faded photographed of the top of a bed, a lamp, someone sleeping with only half torso visible, soft light coming from the window

Studies about time and perhaps light. (March, 2024) Among self-founded works, these studies emerge out of some-no-where. Sometimes I wish someone would explain to me what the hell I’m working on. Then I keep working on it until I get bored or distracted by something else. Whenever the readings that follow these studies lead me through the same path, a kind of grounded work seems to emerge, but they are mainly a way of keeping my mind distracted from what I have had already set out to do, years before, which is why I call them studies or essays. Nothing new, I guess, for most of us who seem to be doing something to prove ourselves in this ticking clock. But don’t take this lightly, I can never do that anyway, as these images seem to come from somewhere where I didn’t want to be revealed and yet I obey and do them.

 
Aug. 2013
Momento incerto, onde as referências emergem e se atropelam (claramente em mente se tem Zabriskie Point de um lado e Bill Brandt do outro, quando a experiência nos assoma). Por um lado a consternação, a confluência das matérias para um ponto, por outro a sua relação material com as demais. Consternação e confluência anunciam a aflição e a ferida, ponto de rasgo material onde tudo o que nele se concentrou lhe abriu agora um espaço. Tal como Cioran, acredito que se prepara o que se cria como quem comete um crime ponderado, «em ambos os casos, o que sobressai é a vontade de ferir.». Não sei porém qualificar essa vontade tal qual como um malefício criminoso, mas que em todo o caso a humanidade o contém nos seus actos, isso é um facto.